auroracassidy:

I have what? Power over you? Since when. Just because I saw you crying and just because you told me some things about you? Telling someone something about you doesn’t mean you give them ‘power’. Well of course if they are like you, can’t handle it, or if they are just mean they use it against you. But normally you tell someone you like something about you. A friend. And  they wouldn’t use it against you. And I would never use what I know and saw against you. Why should I? I’m not like that Brendan. I’m not like you. Making friends, share secrets is always a risk. And for some people it’s harder to open up than for others. But that’s okay. You already saw what a risk it is to fall in love with someone. Sometimes it’s meant to be and sometimes not. But no matter what.. you shouldn’t react like you do now.

But you know what.. It’s all your decision. Your life. Your choice. I will no longer try to make you stop ‘cause I realized it won’t work. Let Lydia pay for what she did to you. Do what you think you have to do. All your choice.

Just know, if you need someone to talk after it or when ever you need someone, just message me. It’s just a friendly offer for you. You don’t have to take it I just want you to know that someone will be there for you when you need one. And maybe you won’t believe me but I’m gonna tell you anyway: I will never ever use something you tell me against you! I promise!

You know me to well Aurora, promises don’t mean anything to me. Maybe I look like I don’t care but secretly Aurora I appreciate what you do for me and I really want to believe and live like you want me to live. But changing to something you’re not is just hard. Of course I can be a sweet guy, like the perfect son-in-law but I also have other sides. I can’t deny something about myself. 

And that offer I would love to talk when I get back. I know that a lot you say causes more pain than be stabbed with a knife but it’s like when your bone had been growing wrong because you broke it, so you have to break it again to let it heal probably it’s something like that. And I would never break my own bones so I need you, I really do. I’m just too scared too admit it.